straightjacket and stardust

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

at the very least kan, i have something to be proud of instead of a picture of myself reflected in the mirror of a toilet.

not that i've anything against it, now. i recall with amazing clarity myself capturing my reflection in the mirror in the rcsi international night many years back. i have in my collection a superfluous number of supposed 'camwhore' pics which somehow brings me little if no embarrassment. i tend to think of a lot of these pictures as excellent snapshots of how i was in the past. better have a pic of you taken yourself at that age than not have one at all. it'll be a millisecond before you find yourself a little older (and hopefully, wiser), and you wouldn't have anything to remember that era by.

anyhoo, i digress. basically what i meant with the first line is, no offence meant to any comwhoring occurring at present (im guilty of this too hehe), but im glad i have a little more to offer. like an education. like a degree(fingers crossed). despite the deathliness of current states, one has to believe that there is a reason behind all of it, and i choose this reason as mine.

i chose to have an education instead of being a bimbo.

hmm. that actually made me feel loads better. surprising.

today was fairly interesting. went to ikea for a light spot of shopping, which does more for the senses than one might believe. lots of pretty pretty things. and pizza for dinner tonight. awesome!

i also like it very much when i don't know for sure the meaning of a word, look it up, and find out it does mean what i thought it meant. not medical words, of course. just random ones.

the best thing to do, i would guess, is to not blame oneself for anything. not too much anyway. its hard enough as it is without the added guilt. there is enough going on to overwhelm anyone, so give yourself a break. i sure could use one :)

am being jumpity-jumpity-jump.

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