straightjacket and stardust

Friday, March 05, 2010

hmm. seems i havent been here in awhile. not because i havent been online, as you can tell. just because i seem to have forgotten this particular avenue of self-expression, it seems. many things on my mind, i guess.

anyways. today, my mind seems at peace. icant quite describe why or how. im quite glad ucd has got us all arranged into this kind of sequences because frankly, it means we're free most of the time, and that translates to more and more studying time. of course, that also means equally more time to do other things to negate the extreme pressures that all this studying entails.

but finals being finals lah. they have always been difficult and scary. but this is the mother of all finals, meaning its difficult and scary, plus always right and intuitive and knows whats best. only joking. just means that if you fail this, you won't graduate with your class. which is infinitely scarier than anything we've ever faced.

but life, as it is right now, is semi-charmed. sometimes i sleep for days, others i become overly-productive. so its fair i guess. there is absolutely no point in beating oneself up over extra hours of shut-eye. and best part is, we're still out watching movies. which is a sign of normalcy if there is any.

there is no point to this, i guess. its just a reflection of how i feel. like sometimes you feel okay and think you've got things under control and then the local res year next to you in the computer labs speaks about something neuro and that lapses you into a state of semi-panic. im just preparing myself for that. for all the usual fears to state taking charge. but you take it one day at a time, one moment before the next.

52 days or so.

anyways no more babbles about exam. now im going to pulun, and petang ni ill concentrate on baby-shower shopping & alice in wonderland in 3d.

maybe life is wonderful.

<3 <3 <3

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