Monday, February 16, 2009
changes are like the wind, it pulls back in another direction without rhyme or reason and the fact that you realize its existence is irrelevant. whats relevant is whether you like the change of direction, if you're bothered by it blowing your hair the wrong way, or making your bicycle that much harder to pedal up a slope.change can be for seconds, or have multiple after-effects, like the clanging of bells in steeples, completely uncontrollable once you've dished the first blow.my multiple clanging today came in the form of being told mid-heated discussion that maybe i was wrong. all emotions fell aside at that point. all i could think of was "god, he's right", and how that just gave me this sense of release. it wasn't like being told off in an argument now, it was a proper discussion, with points of information and uninterrupted speech. it was really the sensation of finally understanding what i've been trying to figure out for months and months and as cathartic as i thought conversations were going to be, seeing it and this in all its glory was so much more. its like making another ending for a scary movie you've seen a jabillion times, when pieces you didn't like now made sense, and the movie becomes okay. if not better. thats the worst analogy i've made up but in a roundabout way it makes some sense. multiple is just the notion of it coming to me again and again and my reveling in said revelation.so? so.thank you. to you and you and you.
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