Monday, December 01, 2008
so this is one of those cliche-drenched entries. (again)today was most tiring for some reason. maybe its the getting accustomed to being back in class and having lectures as opposed to hospitals full time. maybe it was because i didn't rest well after the trip. and maybe i just got caught up. right back where i was before the exams. guess inside i was looking for a way to re-stress, even if its the worst thing i could be doing.anyhoo.i also spent a vicarious 30 mins vacuuming. and to my surprise it was the most soothing 30 mins i've had in yonks. maybe the idea that the physical exertion coupled with the actually doing something beneficial appealed to my multitasking side. anyways, it was exhausting but soooo worth it somehow. now im pooped and pretty much ready for bed.epiphanies mid-vacuuming include the fact that i dislike secrets. not of the serious, accusatory nature but just secrets. maybe living it out in the open is embarassing and flawed and everything becomes a dozen times more fragile, but thats the way i thought it should be. maybe we are all the way we were brought up and the ways of our mothers and fathers and friends and challenges and hardships and experiences. and maybe what we claim to put outside may well be layers and layers hiding what we are way too scared to show the world, or too repressed to ever be let out, lest something or someone knocks and asks.maybe maybe. (im trying to wean myself off saying 'mungkin juga...')
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