Sunday, September 14, 2008
we all deal with matters of perfection. something we see that we really, really want. like a top we see in a magazine. chinese food when one's hungry as fug. problem is, do we deserve what we want? does a pair of shoes (excuse the example), beautiful and uncallused as they may be, make us complete?maybe we can use this, theoretically, in our everyday doings. what we have, what we get, vs what we deserve. human beings who do good, have good intentions, should by right get good things. be lucky. and vice versa.but we all know things are never that black and white.and so. sometimes i wonder about what i really, really want. and that maybe its an impossibility, maybe its wrong, maybe its easy, maybe its right. maybe its a combination of any two of the above.maybe ive got to scoot over a smidge and let this thought stew for a while. its been stewing for awhile now but nevertheless new perspectives to be stewed over thenceforth. i am really not making sense now am i. im just going to stop here. with the stewing and the topic.i somehow miss the days when the heart feels small. it seems like days long gone. i sure won't want those days back but i just recalled that feeling some moments ago. and ah. am in tullamore. adventure!
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