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DISCLAIMER: NOTICEABLY RANDOM THOUGHTS AHEAD.

i stumbled upon something new today. well not exclusively today, just in recent days. maybe a week now. its anger. i realized since the event of said angry bouts that i dont get angry ever. i get irritable, i get sulky, i become passive but im never ever angry. and so in seven days, i had two separate occasions of unfamiliar rage; both occasions involve people not knowing where they stand on an authoritative stance. both include people who have no right to tell me off, and worse still, its for something that doesn't even require telling people off. sheer rudeness. your bad day has nothing to do with me. its revolting, really.

and by the by, i need to make my happy place a little less happier so as to make my days here less filled with social retardation and in an entirety, get more stuff done. happy place hampers that. (insert smiley here)

i do miss some of the people i thought i wouldn't miss. just miss having them around. even if their presence or mine never meant more than just that. its human nature to grieve the loss of things or people. is it weird to grive for the loss of something that has never been directly significant? it would be unfair and unwise to claim people to be unimportant as that would be largely untrue, but what if someone hasn't made the biggest imprint on the canvas that is your life, but you miss them when they're gone? legit?

im making mountains off molehills here. do excuse the random thought expansion. maybe ive never realized how the said parties have been important to me. they have been. i was just blind to it, perhaps.

and oh, i had a nightmare last night. pretty freaky. woke me up with a start. it ended with some classmate im not particularly fond of, placing my head on the shoulders of a patient as part of an investigation, or elliciting of a sign and whatnot. and he says listen out for the patient vomiting and all of the sudden this really loud retching noice comes in my left year and i woke up with similar effects as a bullet going off in my bedroom. dubious stuff.

all in all, a little guilt for not being obsessive, which is a sorry state to be in, mind. a lil mismatched due to having three things which each require all of my energies, all at once. a little other than that, im all smiles.