Sunday, February 17, 2008
needless to say it was neither pointless nor nerve-wrecking. i admit it wouldnt have been the proudest moment of my life, but it was almost necessary, if not timely.im seeing things really falling into place lately. it has been great, hasn't it? im not embracing change in its entirety, but allowing it to grab and move me. without restraint. i am moving along, and on.what took me by surprise was how easy it was. almost effortless, even. it was a small setback, a wall, a little line etched between that when withdrawn, just became stupefying. it made everyone wonder what was happening before. was i lobbed in stereotypes just because? it was monumental that everything was seen in a whole different light when things like this happened. people talked. people introduced themselves. people danced. people asked questions. people said things they've always wanted to say for the past three years but never could because of the wall.how it protected me and hid me at the same time. ill never question gains but i guess i will use my mind in the matter. i know limits, and i trust myself. it doesn't okay things but its okay with me. and okay for now.on other subject matter, malas nak pikir. over-pikiring is eventual, so im just going to wait for it. im just really somewhere in between content and satisfied, but never in extremes of both. i am decidedly relaxed, yet still have small niggling worries of distant exams, and another week of the grinds at the back of my mind. im just comfortable to be here. happy, i guess. so i was walking back home midday in tights which were shockingly pinker in daytime, with sunnies and supposed striking self-confidence (to compensate for the pink attack). the lost weekend was well worth it.to the future!dutdududududududutdududu...
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