Saturday, November 24, 2007
could it just be in my imagination that my phone is significantly physically lighter after my deleting 1600 messages from my inbox? or that i am actually happier when i move the furniture around the house?could it be only in my head that i have these mistakes ive made in the past that im dying to fix? that some people are actually making transiently life-changing decisions possibly due to things that i've said or done or im regretting listening to the things some people had to say while ironically, simultanoeusly regretting the fact that some people refuse to listen?could it be possible that i can enjoy something wholly and permanently instead of getting bored and restless after weeks/months? or shutting my mouth when the time calls for it, or being able to do as i feel, not as i want or as im expected to?could it be said that there's nothing exemplary to look up to? no perfect relationships, individuals, situations, houses, physicality, emotions, or friendships that can prove to the world that there is something to aim towards. instead we are feeling our way around. sometimes positively smarted by the stronger and the seemingly more confident, but always, always feeling around towards the light, not knowing whats there to begin with. it could be that im just frustrated and headachey, and wanting more and no more of this kind of living.save me.
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