Tuesday, June 12, 2007
this is going to be one of those
very disposable ramblings so if you haven't the time or patience please just move downward to the previous entry if you have not done so already, or better still just feckin choose a random bookmarked page to save your sanity(and time).
i asked for a favor from a friend and strangely enough (to me perhaps) i was quite surprised at the immediate response (and not in a good way). sometimes you misjudge someone just a little bit. it doesn't go deep but it makes you go 'ohh....', in a dawning realization kinda way. anyways, problem solved so no harm done. but
i would have done it for you so it sucks a teensy bit (oops. words readably censored).
in another completely random issue, sometimes its better in a relationship to want something and feel miserable, than to have something given to you and then have the giver feel all miserable. i'd almost rather it be me thats on the low than to be pseudo-satisfied (
almost being the operative word).
i am too pissed and bored and worried to be doing the essentials: packing, cleaning, or doing anything that signifies my planning to exit the country for a total of 3 months and 3 days. instead im sitting here dissatisfied at the way the world's treating me, but what's worse is the fact eating me up inside that screams that its me who's doing this to myself.
my what a
self-centered sentence that was.
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