Sunday, April 01, 2007
what surprises me most about being in this stupor
is the fact that i didnt even think about the people i should be thinking about given the circumstances
it shocked me to the core
almost unwillingly
and untowardly
but hey. why didnt i ek?
i am happy.
and that is
saying something.
i am at my happiest but its always then that something or someone comes and steals that away.
it could be that.
or it could be that when you're happy
everything else is worse than that
and thus everything that happens signifies something threatening to take one out of happiness
i have a dozen things to sort out and im being rather thatchy about dealing with them.
im feeling the good old 'term' vibe
in need of a good lie in
and preferring to not exist at all
semua orang boleh menyayangi
this is true yet contradictory
proves my point in so many ways
i hate to have understood that in its most grotesque.sitting here a moment longer would mean my being unable to postpone the inevitable thoughts so just let me end this and then permit my mind to wallow in its oft-deconstruction depths. for the umpteenth time, no doubt.
<3 <3 <3
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