Saturday, December 16, 2006
im feeling a little out of focus. its midnight, almost, and i am just sitting on the bed. plain sailing. using ekin's laptop as she uses mine, my head reeling with one too many thoughts. after three consecutive days of exams, one can expect to be a lil off the shelf. haha.
todays exam was memorable. there was a group of us, all malaysians, all overstressed, sitting on the floor in shelbourne hall, doing what we can to fill our brains before we went it. admittedly, i was hyperventilating slightly when i went in, which irked me slightly because i knew i shouldnt and cant panic, and also because it was stupid and unnecessary. and so i imagined breathing into a paper bag, shrugged of my stupidity, and went on with it. truthfully, the paper didnt turn out to be so bad, although im not entirely satisfied with what ive done.
but i think this is the best semester ive had since i started med school. its one of those semesters where everything made sense (haha did it not make sense before?) and i feel at ease approaching the whole thing. maybe i just know what to expect this time, and thus just found everything that much more manageable.
anyhoo, nuff of the boring stuff. i spose its allright to think about exams seeing as to how our lives so very literally revolve around it for the past two weeks or so. but to me studies is studies. and life is life. there's no point in suffering through it without even the slightest inkling of relaxation. everything in moderation. study all you want and all you can, but dont forget to have fun. we are humans first, and med students second. theres no point in getting hons if you let go of all the fun things in life.
hahha. on a lighter note, i am now contemplating whether to sleep, study, or watch harry potter. ill probably decide on a combination of all three. hahha. i miss mak and am dying to call home and updated her on things. frankly, every time we talk there have been distractions and i just wanna tell her all sorts of things. but ill wait for till we're over neuroscience, then i can reward myself with it. this, and ebay puchase of my choice, and the curling tong i saw the other day, and season 6 scrubs. i can taste the feeling. it is delish.
hehe. at times like this i wanna wait for the moment. and the anticipation is killing me. for a whole lot more reasons than one.
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