Friday, December 15, 2006
have you felt this feeling that youve done something wrong, and the only thing thats filling ur mind is how u can get out of it? if uve done something and you dont want anyone else to know. and you think of evey possible outcome just so you wont get implicated. you dont mind taking the blame, but it involves people dismissing you for it. people will be disappointed, surprised, even put off by it. have you?
im right at that point right now. i don know what initiated me to do such a thing, but the wanting to do it was strong and overwhelming. haha. thats the problem with liking to take risks. once in a while, you hit this kind of glitch. im now sleepy but alert because im filled with imminent and potent chagrin. total regret. complete and utter silencing patheticness.
anyhoo, que serra serra. im going to survive this, as i have survived those many years ago. at times like this i wished i was more careful. i wished i was more positive, and i wish i was a million times less stupid. at the end of the day, no one knows, but it sure as hell is scaring the shit out of me. harhar.
anyhoo, nap time. im so tired from the two hour sleep i had this morn.
tra la la
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