Saturday, December 09, 2006
hmm. i am now cold, and i think my toes are a few degrees cooler than the rest of my body. its probably just the weather, or probably because im also a tad excited about things of late.
i realize that i might only be able to study at night, and obviously im not complaining. im back to being addicted to nutella. i am, and will be, taking my first shower for today (buruk gile perangai).
anyhoo im just probably optimistic due to several reasons, one being how i get so excited after watching a chick flick. two, how instantaneous things can be. like how i can be here right now and someone else can be doing the exact same thing. okay, well maybe not be blogging mercilessly about virtually nothing, but perhaps just being online and doin the very same things i enjoy. it doesnt matter where we are in the end. or where we are from.
and the curious thing about happiness is how much one can tolerate. i can be in total jubilance, and then someone throws some skewed, heart-withering news at me, and anything can happen. i can either break free from the ties of smiles and be back to depression incognito or i could simply shrug it off and remain exactly where i am. or, i could reassess my position, reanalyze my thoughts, and then decide.
which leaves me where i am. somewhat in limbo, neither happy nor depressed. just smiling meekly and focused on how im going to start getting back to studying, and the nutella sandwich that awaits me.
i am
so easy.
<3 <3 <3
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