Sunday, December 03, 2006
hmm. quite scandalously i am mortified at being so benign. so arrogant and so off-putting. but the same time entranced by the sheer irony of the situation. needless to say all i did was put my foot down. have some balls for once. im not the kind of person who puts up with things like that. or maybe its just that im not in the mood for it.
with repetition comes complacency. its strange but it happens. a lot of the time, people suffer. but ive learnt that sometimes we can do something about it. but it will happen and we will feel it. and yet its not the end of the world. tra la la.
i hardly see what was important anymore. we all will stop seeing it. i am not afraid, but i am slighted. its just a whole lifetime we're talking about here. something has to happen.
anyways when my ego's big and my mind's irrational, i get a mini essay and then i laugh. coz its cute and funny. and even though ive met him once and i find him a lil square sometimes, its rather obvious whats going on, even my oblivious though not entirely stupid self admits to it. que serra serra. i will get to it when i see fit. too cloaked up in narcissism to care.
i like today. i feel eccentric, wearing a woolen scarf at my study table. getting all organized. starting to study neuroscience, the subject i hate the most. hello, med student.
<3 <3 <3
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