Friday, December 22, 2006
hmm. in moments like this all little things that cloud my vision and blur boundaries seem a little quaint and unimportant. i just received the news that can and perhaps will change my life and how i live it in the next few years. im forbidden to tell, but i must admit i am ecstatic. grateful. very, very thankful.
it makes me realize that sometimes in life one has to go through some dark clouds in order to seek the sunshine, and when one finally finds it, its gonna be worth it. perhaps the excitement will wear off, and maybe there will be problems up ahead, but im going to meet them when they come, and do what it takes. coz ultimately, even though i might not know it or believe it when people tell me that it will happen, but it did. and i am filled with syukur and elation.
and i didnt. i never listened or believed. that makes me so young and immature, and incapable of believing that these things happen. it points out rather clearly that i will have to trust the people closest to me, because frankly, no matter how much i hate to admit it, they know me so much better than i do.
this is a huge
thank you to the people who care enough about me to make a difference in my life, and those two angels smiling over in malaysia, coz the gift of believing in me is bigger than the gift of life itself. i love you.
<3 <3 <3
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