Friday, November 10, 2006
hmm. im in the arts building using the standing up coms i loathe so. hehe anyhoo today as i was walking from the science building to my tutorial in arts, i bumped into a whole lotta people in their graduation robes. i even managed to sneak a glance at o'reilly hall whilst passing the lib. it just filled me with glee for some invalid reason. hehe. it suddenly dawned on me that this was what it was all about. that person would be me someday. i would be that person someday. it was wonderful. it reminded me that that was what im here all about. that day is why im here today. yeay.
anyways im keeping kate waiting so watch this space.and so. im done with tutorial and largely NOT looking forward to dedicating my almost-end-of-the-week to three hours of biochem. simply atrocious. however if one was milling about this end of campus, one would notice that i was smiling ceaselessly. am smiling ceaselessly. kate just told me that she asked noreen how my abstract was and noreen said she thought it was really good! she actually said it seemed really professional. woohoo!hehe i sound overexcited, but frankly i am. its probably because lately i find it hard to find something i could be really good in and feck now im really motivated to make a good final essay. yeh yeh. hehe i am still smiling. on a more morbid note, why aren't ns results out yet? wahhhhhaaayyy? im not overenthusiastic about this one, however suspence kills me (slowly) and thus i'd prefer to know. pretty please?haha. mulut masin tul. GIT results are out. hahahaha. i did okay i spose. am definitely happy with supposed outcomes of a potentially crappy day. heehee. can i quit laughing now?hmm. im supposedly in a state of retardation at the moment. so many blank shots flying in my direction. i shan't be impaired by the various states of disorderly and instead focus on variables. graduation for example. and seeing so many caucasians on an everyday basis. caring not. thats the best part. over here i dont have to give a fuck. in msia i do. there's all the difference in the world, plus 10,000 kilometres in between.i did the somewhat fucked up thing of looking at my fee payments and seeing all that money wasted on my seemingly ptth education irritates me. the very fact that its coming out of ayah's pockets makes me hate what im doing to no end. gawd knows how i hate being a private student. i abhor it. yech. if i had my way id pay for my own wedding, thats how much i loathe using ayah's money. its just not fair. i dont want anyone else to lose out. haih merepek lagi. haih. haih.come to think of it, all the papers i did relatively well in for sem one of first year was mcq. and so i am feeling the slightest of optimism at doing better this sem. better than last sem, at least. heheh. la la la la la. (why am i talking exams so much? i must be making others depressed)hehehe. ekin says im starting to become a little positive. im thinking that maybe i am. hehe. i dont know. maybe things change. i know i say they do but maybe this is an example. hehe. i say and then i contradict and at the end of the day i prove myself right pulak. wtf? and that concludes one more mind blast in the day of a manic med student. fin.
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