Saturday, October 07, 2006
im giggling at the thought of having a time limit for voicing my thoughts. im as of this moment sitting in the downstairs supposed dining area of a hostel in belfast, which has been converted into a pseudo-office, using the internet. duh. upstairs, the figures of aiza, tina, myra and our new german friend tina are lying fast asleep in room 3 aka river something.
today was a cacophony of thoughts. i was on the bus, and slept in three separate sessions. and afterwards spent most of my time thinking about the same old thoughts. the scenery was beautiful. its amazing how different dublin sity is to the rest of the country. everytime i leave the city it's as if im in a different world altogether.
today us gurls managed to tawaf the entire belfast city. we actually went all around! and the highlights were the gorgeous market where there were some really unusual stuff; like face painting, and funny shaped mirrors. stinky cheese, a whole bunch of old men playing some old songs, there were woolens, allsorts. i got myself a pair of earrings, a mood ring, and chocolate covered apple which was heaven personified (objectified?).
best purchase was a set of op-art photos at an unbelievably bargain-like price. i bought three and i absolutely love them. damn i love bargains!
im missing someone who is so much farther away now that im here and roaming costs a shitload and we don't get line anyway. he says he misses me so much and i pray he means it because many a time those are just words. words to my ears. people who say things they dont mean. but i sense that ur honest. i do. u rock. hehhe. i saw some banyeks today and it made me laugh so loud tau.
today i refuse to speak about what i abjectly speak a lot of in the blog seeing as how its such a big part of me. im just going to simply enjoy this holiday, and then spend the entire of next week slaving over the comings and goings of 11 french men. ouie!
i had so many things to blog about i almost had the idea of writing em down. but i realize it is all in my head. all these lines, the style of writing, the nuances, the puns. all these are from now, from my mind. ways to make the already existing stories and experiences in my head come alive. i dont need pen and paper. i need to be relaxed and have a feckin computer/laptop before me (coz i type soooo much faster than i write). this is the present. everything in the past coming forth through the perspective of the present. hoyeyh.
i am happy. not deliriously so, as per previous entries. just satisfied, im on a break kind of happy. i have thoughts about writing a book, embarassingly so. i dont know. i dont have the time or the attention span required to write anything longer than a blog entry. but que serra serra. never say never. i want to someday do something i thought was impossible.
funny thing is this holiday keeps me comparing. i got focused on the whats and whys. the question of who deserves what, and what not. just random, simplified questions. im enjoying the company of girls i dont spend a whole lotta time with and its proven to be an interesting journey for us. anyways back to the comparing thang, i just realize how differnet and how beautiful everyone really is. and that we are all amazing individuals. that who the fuck deserves to think better. we are equals. we are different. we are unclassifiable.
i surrender to my happy thoughts. my happiness at being myself. my celebration at being me. yes, the very me im usually so critical of. hehhah.
and who's to think this all stemmed from an impromptu, badly planned weekend to a place just
three hours away from home?
<3 <3 <3
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