Tuesday, September 19, 2006
hem. im lying in blind illogical anger at the fact that due to the crappy movements in this supposedly advanced country, i have to move in to my house one fucking day late. sungguh bengang!! anyways i want to just find a confortable place to sit and to calm down before involving myself in periods of blind panic. i want to get myself together, and that's the main reason why i want a house so badly. living out like this is harsh. and it proves to you the true nature of some of the people you know around you. i do not regret getting a house earlier or anything or all that shite on how its best to get a hse over the summer coz to me its all the same. nnt troubling jugak.i might go to the library to sort myself out. i still have an hour and a half before my spanish class and i need to get through some of my required reading. i want to be organized so badly it's almost killing me a lil.i hate feeling too emotional when it comes to my personal life and i could only wish for all these things to end yet i am only capable of thinking of how this affects me and rethink and then think about it again. it sucks. it's painful and the cruel fact is, the person im thinking about is not even close to being worth it.someday im going to sit and read this and laugh aloud and that fact in itself is the very reason i keep on going.fatin, get ready to backdate.
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