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14 feb 2010
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insomnia for the time

im so so lost
my head so heavy
i just had my oral and aural for spanish
and its taking a toll on my head
im feeling weaker than ever
i have this permeable headache
and this urge to just run
and run and run
not physically
just not be here
i came back from germany thinking that im over all that
and im back where i started
only slightly worse
im in like with a guy
who was in love with me before
n who now has a girlfriend
and i cant even tell if its a phase or if i really like him
im that messed up
and yesterday
my best friend revealed that he liked me
it the most obscene, unforgivable way
and i dont know what to do about that
i realize that im no good at spanish and im losing my wits
i haven't enough time to prepare for my finals
yet the last thing i want to do now is touch my physio books
im disappointed in the way some of my friends react when i need them
because i believe that if i were in their shoes
i'd come running
sick or studying or otherwise
im in the com lab
unable to function properly
and thinking of going to the movie
simply to escape the furore
its obvious that i'm never gonna beat my first sem results
hell
im wondering if i'll even get beyond a 3.00
which sux
i know i won't fail
but im just scared
i knoe that at the end of da day
i have no one else to blame but myself
i knoe i'd get about a c for my vascular
maybe better off for cardiac etc
but im just lost
and as long as im not found
i cant start studying.
its two weeks exactly from today
and i wanna go home
i wanna run n laugh and scream
and play and live at home
i wanna stop.
here.
now.