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insomnia for the time

im in the libraary
again
watching as the queue for computers snake up
i knoe i should be out of here
but im not
not quite yet
i got my renal results
considering the paltry preparation i had for it
i didnt do dat badly
but im still disappointed
in myself
in my efforts
in my life
what have i become?
what made me turn out this way?
become something, someone that scrambles at stuff like this
i used to be able to do this
and more
so how has things change
sometimes id like to blame it all on the past
sometimes i just mean to want someone or something else to be the excuse
but deep down i knoe its all bs
thats its me
im the culprit
the cold-blooded killer
killer of hopes
of happiness
and killer of all things good
i want to not be this way anymore
gud thing is
i ahve a three week period
of which to reflect
examine
and understand myself
and where i am in this fecked up world
gosh it cud really be beautiful
if only the world knew whut i needed
thing is
needing it is the ultimate wrong
if i didnt need something
i wouldnt be in this position im in right now
okay feck this
im starting to feel a lot of sympathy for those waiting in line for the computers
i'll get thru this
i hope
and even if i dont
there's the 3 month (less, actually) limit to look to
i miss my mammy