Thursday, August 25, 2005
hmm..
i cried today..
well not boo hoo hoo
but there were tears flowing
im messed up a lil bit
a little stressed about leaving so soon
with so many uncertainties
and so many things to do
the pessimist in me
today was a lot of things mixed into one
i had a great outing with am
watched a movie
which turned out pretty good
thrs sumthin bout a satisfying movie
that makes ur day
a lil more special
anyways
as i returned
reality kicked in
im not nearly as prepared as i should be
my stomach is in knots
i am completely drenched
with the sheer uncertainty
i hate being this oblivious
im a pessimist u see
and although im lucky
and i do get lucky
i fail to see those sides of me
and as much as i want to enjoy
the fact that im leaving
and starting med school
in ireland
which is just about
whut i've always dreamt about
im messed
thats all
i can't even see the point
of my blog today
in my minds eye
im excited bout the prospects
im terrified of the challenges
n im sad about leaving
all things beautiful in my eyes
words tend to calm me
and mak is doin great
givin suggestions and everything
its just a big turnaround
and im feeling so small
anyways there's a documentary on klcc
that'll take my mind off the thoughts
as i find out how the building
i spent my day in
came to exist
i spose its safe to assume
that seeing the growth of big things
will make me think big
hahha
so hopefully
i dont feel so small nemore..
mwahs`
<3 <3 <3
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