Saturday, August 20, 2005
life is a gamble
u cant always win
funny how it isnt
sumthin that happened
but rather
sumthing i sed
and sumthin he sed
that sloshed my moods
tonight
i kinda figured
that no one can really understand
whuts goin on
in my head right now
i have so many lil things
pricking me
pressing on my insides
it insipidly cuts my breath
i wanted to cry in the car
i tried
and failed
it was sad
i was sad too,
in case u missed the point..
sue me for self-pity
i don't see u
wearing my shoes just yet
its anything
and everything
i shan't lie and pretend
im not all that happy lately
sometimes little things accumulate
and eventually turn to sores
and it hurts most then..
i drove with the radio turned off
got on the nerves of
a few other road users
and worried myself to death
when i approached a road block
but i wasnt asked to pull over
i was over the speed limit tho
dammit
my life is at a turnaround
and i wouldn't say that im unprepared
just a lil
unfair
haha
that pretty much sums it up
i can say
im dying to just
run away to dublin
and free myself
from the parasitic demons
clinging to me
and at the same time
im running nowhere
coz the truth follows
and the truth hurts the same
i don know when it will ever be right
so i close my eyes
scratch that itch on my shoulder
feel the wind from the fan against my cheek
and revel in self pity
coz
the world might want to lose me
but at least im keeping my sanity
<3 <3 <3
18:51
