Monday, August 22, 2005
it has been a busy day
and i actually have no way
of arranging my thots this tyme
lets just play it by ear
anyways
today ayah and i
went scouting for flight tickets
we've booked
but we haven't bought
which means
there's a four day
margin for error
anyways
the ultimate issue of discussion
was still
shud ayah follow me to dublin?
honestly
it'd be fun if he comes along
the initial plan was to lepak in london for a day or two
and shop
and ayah catching sum footy
and then come to dublin
and drop me off
well at least
thats whut mak wants as well..
but i'd rather
attempt to make
my way alone
as opposed to
feeling guilty for having
ayah spend for an extra flight ticket
just to get me in ireland
when he's spent
more than enuff already
but i do see it from their perspective
my parents have tried
oh-so-very hard
to give the best to akak, i and adik
to shelter us from
any form of danger
ayah n mak
would do anything
for my safety and well being in malaysia
i can't even walk to school
1 km away
for fear of impinent dangers:
kidnapping
snatch thefts
etc
and would spend their top dollar
ensuring i have the very best
and be comfortable
so why in heavens
would they let me
travel to another country
unfamiliar to me
in another continent
all alone
instead of spending
rm3k
on a flight ticket
for ayah to ensure my safety
so this is a feud
between my thoughts and theirs
they trust my instincts
but i trust their love
so im down to my favourite:
que serra serra.
i'll never knoe
how this will turn out
but i knoe it will turn out right
and if ayah follows
or he doesn't
i am still going to be
their baby gurl
and im proud of that
no matter what
i lubs you
mwah`
<3 <3 <3
18:06
